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Panic Attack and Pufferfish

Cave Diving (Sal Island - Cabo Verde)

Safety Stop. Scuba divers are about to going up.

I have been scuba diving for five years in many dive sites, and some of them even considered as difficult ones because of strong current or having numerous sharks and other huge marine life. I considered myself as an experienced scuba diver with hundreds of logged dives. I believe I have easy going attitude and – oh well, I’d better stop here as it looks now I am doing self-promotions..

Regardless of what mentioned as “myself promotions”; for the first time in my scuba diving experience and my entire living experience, I had a panic attack at an easy dive site in Sal Island (Cape Verde). It happened when I was about to descend; I was not even under the water yet. Out of the blue, I felt that I could not breathe and my heart beat so fast. I wanted to take off my diving wetsuit. I was unreasonable; I screamed that I could not breathe and felt that I was about to drown. I kept inflating my BCD (Buoyancy Control Device) jacket while it was already fully inflated. Thankfully Ben, our dive guide, was quickly helping me and brought me back to the boat. I can’t thank enough for his quick respond – Ben, whenever you read this,  thank you again!

Divers Alert Network mentioned panic attack could happen to an experienced scuba diver for no apparent reason, and that could be because the divers lose sight of familiar objects become disoriented and experience sensory deprivation. I did not feel of losing sight of any familiar objects. However, I did feel that I was not fully fit when preparing my dive on that day. I took the rest of the day off from scuba diving. On the following day, I went for cave diving in Buracona and things went well, I had no panic attack at all.

What my panic attack has to do with the pufferfish (blowfish) was pure coincidence. A couple days later, Dutchie and I went scuba diving at the dive site where I had panic attack. The dive site, Dive Site Santo Antão wreck, had a cargo ship that was wrecked in Santa Maria bay. The dive site was full of pufferfish, hundreds of pufferfish. They were everywhere around the wreck.

When frightened and stressed, the pufferfish will inflate himself by sucking water and air he can swallow to fill his stomach. This is his defensive mechanism but it also could get the fish killed when releasing the air after the inflation. While a pufferfish inflated himself when got frightened, I did keep inflate my BCD jacket when I had panic attack.

Pufferfish inflate

This tiny spiny puffer fish was caught in a neuston net tow. Many juvenile fish live in clumps of sargassum weed, a type of marine algae that lives its whole life floating at the oceans surface. South Atlantic Bight, Southeast United States. Photographer: Bruce Moravchik, NOAA. Credit: Islands in the Stream Expedition 2002.

It was no fun for having panic attack. I was lucky it happened before I was deep underwater, it’s not safe to inflate BCD jacket when underwater, as the scuba diver will go up faster without safety stop that could caused decompression sickness. After the experience I study how to handle the panic but I do hope it will never occur again.

As for scuba divers who care about marine life, would do their best not to frighten nor to stress pufferfish to get the fish inflated for the sake of picture. This scuba diver did so as portrayed in his flickr image for instance, and it’s embarrassing, if not then it’s a disappointing attitude of other fellow scuba diver. I just don’t get why it is so difficult not to touch or not to hassle marine life when scuba diving.  We are just the visitors in the ocean and the ocean is their home, just leave them alone and respect their lives at their home.

It’s OK now 🙂

Excellent articles on how to deal with panic when scuba diving:

Panic Underwater – avoiding

Why Divers Panic — And How to Deal With It

162 Comments »

  1. Ohh Indah, this really would have been unnerving, and frightening for you. Thank you for sharing something like this, which is so personal. It would take a lot of strength and courage to share.

    Your posts regarding marine life are so informative. I have heard of puffer fish, but not a lot of details.

    Thank you again for sharing your heart. Much care and concern!

    ~Carl~

    • Hi Carl, thank you so much! I am glad sharing it. I have never had panic attack before. Lesson learned, scuba diving is a sport that needs good fitness. I should stop when I felt unfit and just relaxing for the day but I didn’t. I was pushing my limits 😦

    • It was 🙂 but after that, it was more puzzle and wanders 😀 I guess it happened because I was unfit and kept continue diving 🙂 Thank you so much Maniparna 🙂

  2. I have panic attacks every time I read one of your posts! Seriously in awe of what you do and relieved to hear all resolved well. That poor little puffer fish looks fit to explode . . . 😦

    • oh please don’t because it is no fun!! 🙂 but I do hope that will be my last one. I should not underestimate diving just because of being experienced 🙂 Thank you so much Patti!

  3. how scary for you! I have a peanut allergy, and have had a number of panic attacks when I think i’ve eaten peanuts but actually I havent. I know how horrible they can be. but you know, this makes for an interesting post, and of course, amazing photos! (for you, not me!)

    • Oh that’s unpleasant! I am sorry to hear that 😦 I can imagine it could be tough to check all the ingredients of the food especially when traveling to countries that has no awareness of allergy! The trend in Rotterdam now is to include also menu for people with specific allergy and even diets. It is great initiative, I think..

  4. I can’t imagine how that felt. I’ve had many just going about my daily routine and commend you for going back in the water

    • Sometimes things happen with no reasons 😦 I went scuba diving on the following day at more difficult dive site and it went well. I would not give up scuba diving because of the panic, i realized that i have to keep my stamina too. Thank you for your wonderful support! Best wishes for you too xoxoco

  5. So sorry that you experienced a panic attack, Indah. I have read your links, they are very helpful.
    I didn’t know about the puffer fish… How cruel! 😦 If you know any other examples of harming a living creature for a stunning photograph, could you please write about that?
    Thank you for your post, and stay safe!

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