Panic Attack and Pufferfish

Safety Stop. Scuba divers are about to going up.
I have been scuba diving for five years in many dive sites, and some of them even considered as difficult ones because of strong current or having numerous sharks and other huge marine life. I considered myself as an experienced scuba diver with hundreds of logged dives. I believe I have easy going attitude and – oh well, I’d better stop here as it looks now I am doing self-promotions..
Regardless of what mentioned as “myself promotions”; for the first time in my scuba diving experience and my entire living experience, I had a panic attack at an easy dive site in Sal Island (Cape Verde). It happened when I was about to descend; I was not even under the water yet. Out of the blue, I felt that I could not breathe and my heart beat so fast. I wanted to take off my diving wetsuit. I was unreasonable; I screamed that I could not breathe and felt that I was about to drown. I kept inflating my BCD (Buoyancy Control Device) jacket while it was already fully inflated. Thankfully Ben, our dive guide, was quickly helping me and brought me back to the boat. I can’t thank enough for his quick respond – Ben, whenever you read this, thank you again!
Divers Alert Network mentioned panic attack could happen to an experienced scuba diver for no apparent reason, and that could be because the divers lose sight of familiar objects become disoriented and experience sensory deprivation. I did not feel of losing sight of any familiar objects. However, I did feel that I was not fully fit when preparing my dive on that day. I took the rest of the day off from scuba diving. On the following day, I went for cave diving in Buracona and things went well, I had no panic attack at all.
What my panic attack has to do with the pufferfish (blowfish) was pure coincidence. A couple days later, Dutchie and I went scuba diving at the dive site where I had panic attack. The dive site, Dive Site Santo Antão wreck, had a cargo ship that was wrecked in Santa Maria bay. The dive site was full of pufferfish, hundreds of pufferfish. They were everywhere around the wreck.
When frightened and stressed, the pufferfish will inflate himself by sucking water and air he can swallow to fill his stomach. This is his defensive mechanism but it also could get the fish killed when releasing the air after the inflation. While a pufferfish inflated himself when got frightened, I did keep inflate my BCD jacket when I had panic attack.

This tiny spiny puffer fish was caught in a neuston net tow. Many juvenile fish live in clumps of sargassum weed, a type of marine algae that lives its whole life floating at the oceans surface. South Atlantic Bight, Southeast United States. Photographer: Bruce Moravchik, NOAA. Credit: Islands in the Stream Expedition 2002.
It was no fun for having panic attack. I was lucky it happened before I was deep underwater, it’s not safe to inflate BCD jacket when underwater, as the scuba diver will go up faster without safety stop that could caused decompression sickness. After the experience I study how to handle the panic but I do hope it will never occur again.
As for scuba divers who care about marine life, would do their best not to frighten nor to stress pufferfish to get the fish inflated for the sake of picture. This scuba diver did so as portrayed in his flickr image for instance, and it’s embarrassing, if not then it’s a disappointing attitude of other fellow scuba diver. I just don’t get why it is so difficult not to touch or not to hassle marine life when scuba diving. We are just the visitors in the ocean and the ocean is their home, just leave them alone and respect their lives at their home.

It’s OK now 🙂
So appreciated your story. Great that you recovered. All the best to you in your future adventures underwater! Beautiful fish. (Nice to see you exploring as well.)
My pleasure to share my experience, Cynthia! And thank you so much for your kind words and supports 🙂
Something similar happened to me once. We took a quickie course and waded/swam to our dive site. Just before we dove, I had a sudden feeling just like you described. The instructor talked me into diving anyway, and it was fine once we were under the water — beautiful and fun — but I never dove again. Glad you recovered quickly, and jumped right back into the wetsuit. Cheers —
It appears panic attacks are common thing happen when scuba diving and I am glad that you encountered it very well and thing turned out well for you! A good and experienced instructor is important to assist when we were panicking. Thank you so much for sharing your experience 🙂
Glad you’re fine Indah. Who knows why these things happen?
Thank you! Yes indeed, it was an unexpected – I thought it may strongly related because myself was insecure due and feeling unfit.
Remember that panic attack, you’ll have more of them because of it. Just thought I’d plant that seed 😛
Hahaha 😀 I like that idea actually – in fact that may make me to be aware and should be more fit when scuba diving 😉
You take good care,
Dear Indah..ya hear!
Thank You for another wonderful offering, always
such a pleasure for me when you post
with love
bapak john
Thank you so much Bapak John! I am so happy to hear this from you and that you return to the online world! I miss your poems!
Your pufferfish looks a bit like a blind date I once had…..
Oh nooo…that could means many things including cute, poisonous or ready to get inflated at any moments 🙂
Puffed!!
It’s great that you’re sharing your story. People have panic attacks all the time, and I deal with many clients in the throes of them. It’s so great that you were able to return to the site and have a successful dive.
Gladly sharing my experience, Jay. I share my feelings for people who had panic attack. It was unpleasant and after the panic, I felt bit lost and foolish. I could not explain what happen, and perhaps it will stay that way. I was advised to scuba dive again on the next day and it worked! I hope your clients will not give up and best wishes for you in assisting them ❤
Indah I am so sorry to hear of your panic attack. That must have been very frightening. It sounds like your guide handled the situation with great skill and compassion.
The puffer fish are so fascinating. I have seen some when snorkelling in Jamaica. So incredible.
Take care xo
Thank you so much Sue! I hope that will be my first and last one 🙂 I have to get fit when scuba dive 😀 – lesson learned.